Talk:Battle of Mt. Fuji/@comment-44997843-20200306130617/@comment-27492705-20200804163858

"Crazy" is incredibly subjective. I believe everything has a reason, even if the reason is a bit nonsensical. All interesting people are their own kind of crazy. And you don't have to resign yourself to it if you don't want to. Self-reflecting is a good start.

People tell me "you don't need to understand" all the time and it never sinks in and usually makes me feel worse because logically that should be true, but my brain is like "No! I must know all the things or I will die!" That's also where my obssessive Code Geass knowledge comes from.

And then I'll just make sure one thing is clear because I don't want you to hate me for a false assumption. I was very saddened by Lelouch's death. I like it in the sense of a piece of artwork, as a beautiful heartwrenching tragedy. But the feelings it invokes in me are always connected to sadness. I tear up nearly every time I see it and I sobbed the first time I did. It always hurt to see Lelouch get hurt. I get attached probably too much to fictional characters and I genuinely mourned Lelouch.

I just know the world isn't black and white, especially in Code Geass. Lelouch is not good or evil, nor is Schneizel or anyone else. Most characters in Code Geass do good and bad, or at least do bad for good reasons, like Charles and Marianne as well as Shin Hyuga Shaing. There are few characters I find no redeeming or sympathetic qualities in, but I also accept and admit to their flaws, because all of the characters are flawed. The only characters I can think of with no redeeming qualities are Diethard Reid and Luciano Bradley, and only Luciano I would consider evil. Deithard is just a selfish ass face. But even the purest of characters, Euphemia and Nunnally, are extremely flawed, let alone Lelouch. I hope you understand what I'm saying?